习惯一早起来就去check fb,
看看昨晚我睡着后大家都在fb上post了什么，
结果看到的是某个status update，
心里揪了一下，
然后在上班途中播着戴爱玲的《沸腾》，
是什么把我的思绪弄得乱七八糟，
I want to get rid of this from my life!
I should not even have care about this at all!
But why my emotion so easily affected by this?
When can I become immune?

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今天工作看着To-do List,
依然有十几样东西pending，
我不怕东西多要做，
只怕要做的东西我不会做。
结果就在极度慌乱时，
我竟然做了一件蠢事，
实在是觉得自己怎么可以那么粗心而不再三检查。
很内疚，怕因为这样而害了大家。
Ever since I started working,
I realized there are always so many things to be completed,
yet so little time to do it.

I know mistakes are inevitable in the learning process,
but some mistakes you just cant make,
not even once.
and today I just made another one :(
I feel stressed again,
I start questioning my ability again.
I used to think it's not whether you can do it,
it's whether you want to do it.
When there's a will, there's a way.
But in real life, it's so hard to do things perfectly.
I aint perfect though :(

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I have a wild thought.
Can I just do something crazy?
I feel like to know,
what would happen if I am not who I am now?
Who will be there for me?
If I regret, I wanna revoke anytime.
Can I?